*Just Dancin Through Life...

I guess its true what they say about how u never relle know wat u have till its gone...

ive had the worst week and i feel so upset.. i dont know who to tell so i guess thats why im writing in this journal..which i havent written in in about 3 months.
I feel like ive lost one of my best friends, and it hurts soo bad cuz now wat i thought was a good thing i relle think is not. im crying all the time.. but not when ne one can see and i act like im fine but im not. i just want everything back the way it was, i want my friends back and i want everything to feel good again.. i walk around with these knots in my stomach and they dont go away.. there are so many things i want to say but the one person i want to say them too i cant and i think thats what hurts the most.. to have some one in ur life for such a long time and then all of the sudden they arent there. I feel like my life is soo boring and that i do the same shit day in and day out and miss the old stuff i used to do... theres soo much more to say but i dont know how to say it soo... till next time...

haha soo i havent written in this journal in mmhmmm bascially 3 months so i decided it was about time because alot of things are happening....

couple things ive discovered in the past couple of months:

- people change really easily and in this case its not good :-(
- friends seem to come and goo really easily aswell
- high school goes by really fast and no body notices till its too late
- lastly there really isnt enough time and its kinda scary

soo those were my dicoveries.. not very positive but what are ya gunna do.. things are just soo wierd latley and i cant fix them. I wish people would realize but they dont. o well what can ya do.

on a happier note melanie got her license and it makes me soo happy because i cant wait to get mine.. im like peeing in my pants with excitement and if i dont get it i will cry forever! lolol

neways maybe i will write in this thing more reguarly now lol...ciao

01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal...
...Britt and Gina have this soo i decided to be a poser pants and have it too!!

Oh and heres a lil diddy brought to you by grandpa petriccione~

Gee just aint it great to have a gal so big and fat, that when you go to hug her ya dont know where you're at?
You've got to take a piece of chalk in your hand and hug a mark and chalk away to see where you began.
One day when i was huggin and a chalkin and asking her to be my bride, I met another fella with some chalk in his hang, coming around the other side.. over the mountain... over the great divide..
I DONT WANNA U CAN HAVE HER SHES TO FAT FOR ME!, SHES TO FAT SHES TO FAT, SHES TO FAT FOR ME!!!

So today was recital/show whatever ya want to call it and it was ok. It was good but i did horrible in it soo its all good lol. My boyfriend decided not to call or not even try to get a ride so that was wonderful but everyone else was there which was good. After recital i went to my aunts house to eat and swim. It was good but then my cousin threw something at me and cut my lip again! lol im just a walking disater! lol. Neways soo tomorrow its back to school which should be bundles of fun.. the good thing is theres only twoo more weeks till summer!!! yay

June 5= 25 days till my birthday!!

Hey!
So I havent posted in the longest time so im thinking now that my computer semi works again i will start because i hvae nothing better to do with my time!
I have had a pretty bad week, ive been in the worst mood and i can tell i piss people off!lol (sorry)
Today i was thinking about stuff and i think my problem is that i care about things too much such as people and other things. But ne ways other than all this poppycock id have to say its pretty cool that theres like 10 days left of school. I cant wait till summer and till i can drive! Summer should be soo fun but it just seems so short for some reason! Im really excited to hang out with everyone and hopefully we will all have alot of fun!
School's pretty crappy im doin pretty bad in two of my classes and i am dredding finals since i know absoulty nothing and bs my way through life.
Ne ways its thursday so only 1 more day till the weekend... which is the show! lol im kinda happy because i like to preform but kinda not because i suck lol!

June 2= 28 days till my birthday! dont forget to get me something good!

Basics
Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: nooo
If not, do you want to be?:sometimes...lol jk
Birthdate:: June 30th
Your age:: 15
Age you act: I like to think i act my age but probally like 2
Age you wish you were:: 16
Your height:: 5'7
Eye color:: blue
Happy with it?: yess
...Hair color:: blonde
Happy with it?:i like the color i cant say i liek how it looks sometime
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: at home
Your family:: mom, dad,jackie, and olivia
Have any pets?: yes 1 dog nicki
Whats your job?: being annoying
Piercings?: just ears soo farrrr
Tattoos?: none
Obsessions?: everything lol jk
Addictions?: none
Do you speak another language?: spanish but not well
Have a favorite quote?: Live every day like its ur last and dont look back on past mistakes
Do you have a webpage?: no just this live journal

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: i would like too but i dont know if i do
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yea....well mostly
Do you have any secrets?: ehh not really
Do you hate yourself?:no
Do you like your handwriting?:i hate it
Do you have any bad habits?: ehh cant think of ne at the moment
What is the compliment you get from most people?: nice eyes, and i can be funny when i want to be

If a movie was made about your life what would it be called? Why i plead insanity
What's your biggest fear?: The ones i love the most leaving

Can you sing?: i say i cant but people say i can
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: i try not to
Are you a loner?: at times
What are your #1 priorities in life? friends including boyfriend
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: yea
Are you a daredevil?: yes
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: how insecure i am about my self

Are you passive or agressive?: passive and it tends to get hte best of me
Do you have a journal?: livejournal
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: weakness- afraid of alot of things strength- not known
you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: weight
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: no way, soo emotional
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: being way to jealous
Do you think life has been good so far?: ehh some parts are good
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: think before u speak haha yea thats a good one
What do you like the most about your body?: eyes
And least?: the rest of it

Do you think you are good looking?: i dont but some people doo
Are you confident?: sometimes
What is the fictional character you are most like?: i have no idea never really thought about it

Are you perceived wrongly?: ya

Do You...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?:no
Read the newspaper?: no
Pray?: no
Go to church?: sometimes usually never
Talk to strangers who IM you?: no
Sleep with stuffed animals?: 2 bears that were giving to me
Take walks in the rain?:no but i have mud fights with chelsea in the rain
Talk to people even though you hate them?: uhuh
Drive?: no
Like to drive fast?: well considerin i dont driivie

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: noo
Hurt yourself?: heck no
Been out of the country?: yea
Eaten something that made other people sick?: ya but i cant think of it lol
Been in love?: yea
Done drugs?:no
Gone skinny dipping?: no
Had a medical emergency?:yes
Had surgery?: uhh noo
Ran away from home?: yes when i was like 5 got half way down the road
played strip ...poker?: started too but stopped
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up?:no
been up on stage?: recitals
Slept outdoors?: yes
Thought about suicide?: no could nver doo suttin like that
Pulled an all nighter?: yea
If yes, what is your record?: 5
Gone one day without food?: hell nooo u on crack?
Talked on the phone all night?: yea
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: ehh noo
Slept all day?: yea
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: yes
Kissed the same sex?: eww no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: yes
Had a dream that came true?: yea
Broken the law?: yeh
Met a famous person?: yea cant remember who thoguh
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
On purpose?: a bug
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yea...oops...
Stolen anything?: no
Been on radio/tv?: nope
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: no not really
Bungee jumped?: no but i want too
Had a dream that kept coming back?: ya

Beliefs
Believe in life on other planets?: sometimes
Miracles?: yes
Astrology?: ehh idk
Magic?: no
God?: i believe theres suttin not quite sure wat
Satan?: see above
Santa?: no
Ghosts?: yes
Luck?: once ina while
Love at first sight?: umm no
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yea
Witches?: no
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: no
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no
Do you wish on stars?: yea

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yea
Do you think God has a gender?: yes
Do you believe in organized religion?: umm
Where do you think we go when we die?: i dont wanna talk bout it ...lol i agree

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: umm not close friends
Who is your best friend?: Chelsea,Mel,Andrew,Gina,Katie,Christine,Court
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: probally katie chelsea andrew
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: i dont kno
Your favourite inside joke?: Napoleon
Thing you're picked on most about?: how stupid i can be
Who's your longest known friend?: melanie,, well actully i new katie long time ago too
Newest?: idk
Shyest?: christine
Funniest?: Andrew
Sweetest?: Gina
Closest?: everyone
Weirdest?: Chelsea
Smartest?: Christine
Ditziest?: Melanie and Chelsea
Friends you miss being close to the most?: idk
Last person you talked to online?: Brooke
Who do you talk to most online?:chelsea
Who are you on the phone with most?: Andrew
Who do you trust most?: ummm ties
Who listens to your problems?: Andrew Chelsea Katie
Who do you fight most with?: hahah i tend to have the most arguments with christine and andrew but i love them both
Who's the nicest?: Me of course
Who's the most outgoing?:Andrew
Who's the best singer?: Gina
Who's on your shit-list?: Stephanie
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: not really
Who's your second family?: pasheluks
Do you always feel understood?: absolutly not!!
Who's the loudest friend?: LAURA!..thanks chelsea but i would have to say i am the loudest
Do you trust others easily?: yea which isnt the best hting
Who's house were you last at?: Ginas

Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:Andrew
Do your friends know you?: i believe so
Friend that lives farthest away: ilive in the middle of all my friends


Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: no one
You wanted to kill?: idk
That you laughed at?: brooke
That laughed at you?: brooke
That turned you on?: i think we all know who that is
You went shopping with?: mommy lol
You went bolwing with?: family
That broke your heart?: idk
To make you cry?: umm crap last night
To brighten up your day?:i dont remeber
That you thought about?: i dont know who thinks about me im not psyhcic
You saw a movie with?:gina
You talked to on the phone?:andrew
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:brooke
You saw?:: gina
You lost?: what kinda question is that

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: later
Will it be with your significant other?: no
Or some random person?:no
What are you wearing right now?: comfy pants and a sweatshirt sexy right?
Body part you're touching right now:: face
What are you worried about right now?: ehh all sorts of stuff
What book are you reading?: A list 3 blonde ambition
What's on your mousepad?: dell support.com
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: tired, bored, sleepy, bored, tired
Are you bored?: yea
Are you tired?: heck yes i am
Are you talking to anyone online?: yea
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: ok
Are you listening to music?: yea john mayer

lol that took me like a half hour soo read it biznatches

Today is Sunday and my weekend has been ok..
The only highlight was when chelsea came over on friday... we didnt do much though.. talked on the computer with people.. and played sims 2.. that game is really fun u should buy it. lol im cool.
Saturday i couldnt do ne thing cuz i wasnt allowed, which was pretty stupid if u ask me.. so i just sat home and watched my sisters while my mom went out with her friends for dinner at a mexican resturant.
Today my mom was in an uber bad mood and woke me up and yelled at me to clean my room and do my homewrok becuase we were going to my grandmothers house to night for pizza to celebrate my moms b'day that was on last tuesday.... no that pissed me off becuase i was suppose to be doing something with andrew and iw as really lookin foward too it butt noo i wasnt allowed to beacause of my stupid mother.. grarr.
So ne ways i went to my grand mothers.. itwas kinda stupid.. it was only me my sisters my mom, my uncle jack, aunt laura , steven, and my grandparents.
The cake tasted like poop and i had way too much pizza...
So thats whats been happin in my life.. post me and tell me if ur weekends been ne better!

"Stop searching forever, Happiness is just next to you"

Ok so ya.. havent written in a while... didnt feel really up to it.. but neways.. today volleyball went to COD's office to discuss our coaches and pretty much about how we hate them... it went well i guess we got out wat we needed to say and christine and justy talked to cod and mrs richards later...i think it went fairly well.. We have a game tomorrow! better come or ill kik ur butt...lol jk actully..

School is ok kinda sucks though o well it will be over in like 9 months.. maybe i dunno... everything else is good though.. we have school off on monday soo its all good!

But ne ways.... Today i have been going out with Andrew for exactly 1 year...lol well not exactly since he asked me out at night and its only like 5 oclock but its all good.. but soo i guess the point of this is just the fact that i love andrew veryy much and i am glad we made it this far :-*

"Happiness happens when all your dreams come true"- Wicked

Never....
Never say I love u
if it isn't really there
Never talk bout feelings
if you really don't care
Never hold my hand
if u'r gonna break my heart
Never say u are gonna
If u dont plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all u do is lie
Never say hello
If u really mean goodbye
If u really mean forever
Then please say ull try ..
Never say forever..
Because forever makes me cry..

i liked it lol soo i put it on my journal cuz im cool...

hmm.. soo i wish my day could have been as cool as andrews...http://www.livejournal.com/users/i_own_dancers/.. but it wasnt so i dont have much to write about.
Yesturday we had a volleyball game against masuk which was horrible.. the coach was such an ass. We lost which sucks but we will beat Notre Dame tomorrow when we play them.. Then on friday we have a game home..Andrew is coming to that game :-) and soo is my grandparents woot woot lol... hopefully my grandma wont stare at andrew again the whole time. haha.

Today at school was pretty boring.. nothing much happened and it was rainy and everyone wasnt in the greatest of moods.. i just wanted to go home and sleep. I think lunch is my favorite class beacause andrew and christine make it soo fun..lol

my life is actully pretty boring at the moment.. when i actully think of something interesting that you might wanna read i will post again...

"Eventually all the pieces fall into place...untill then: laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know everything happens for a reason."